Kinsley's Birth

It is fast approaching my babies first birthday and I figured it was time to write down how Kinsley came into this world, or should I say flew into the world...

Tuesday afternoon on February 28th 2011 I started having consistent contractions.  They were not too bad, but I knew that they were not going away.  Once I entered active labor with my older two children, labor went fast, so I figured I should head to the hospital.  When I got there the nurses checked me and a doctor came in to talk to me.  He said that the nurses and my doctor wanted me to go home because I wasn't progressing, but he suggested that I stay the night in the hospital because he thought Kinsley would be born fast once labor started.  I agreed.  So I received some light meds to help me sleep through my contractions so I would be well rested.  I woke up at about 3:45 with painful contractions.  The nurses came in and said I was dilated to a 3 and was now in active labor.  By 4:15 I was telling the nurse I needed to push.  She told me I probably had to go to the bathroom.  I told her this is my 3 child and I know what labor is like and asked her to check my progress.  She said she wasn't going to check for a few hours because I was not ready.  For the next hour I kept telling the nurse i needed to push and she kept telling me I needed to go to the bathroom not push.  Finally I decided if the nurse wasn't going to let me push and I was going to have to stay in agony for a while I needed an epidural.  Actually, I figured they can't give epidurals past a certain point and so I was sure she would check my progress before giving me one.  But she didn't.  So in came the anesthesiologist.  He made my Mom and sister leave the room because only one person (Grant) is allowed to be in the room while getting an epidural.  Kylie and my Mom stood right outside my room.  Right as the anesthesiologist finished I decided there was no more trying not to push.  I said out loud to no one in particular "I am going to push!" No one listened.  I was sitting on the edge of the bed (that is how I needed to be to give me an epidural) started to lay down, my water broke.  At this point between my water breaking and my screaming dramatically increasing the nurses realized what was going on.  All their eyes got huge and they started running around like crazy trying to get things ready.  In the process of them running around, Kinsley decided to make an appearance.  Grant saw while non of the nurses did and he got a scared look and put his arms out to catch her (now I laugh remembering his look then his hands).  Thankfully a nurse saw reached over and caught Kinsley.  When I say caught Kinsley, imagine a movie where a baby is born and flies across the room....pretty much that is what happened.  From the time my water broke to her being born was about 10 seconds.  The on call doctor did not even make it into the room.  He didn't even get notified.  When he did get to the room he looked at me and said "I told you it was going to happen fast.  You would not have made it here if we sent you home".  Needless to say about 3 minutes after Kinsley was born the epidural kicked in.  Oops.  Kinsley was born at 5:40.  An hour and 25 minutes after telling the nurses I had to push.  Had they listened I would have had 35 minutes of active labor.  I am worried my next baby will be born if I sneeze around her due date. :)  My Mom and sister were out side the room when they heard my screaming get louder.  They tried to come in and a nurse said they we not supposed to be in here and the ignored her and were just able to run around the curtain in time to see Kinsley born.  Kinsley just wanted to make a dramatic arrival.  She wanted everyone to know she was here. 

The stess of life

God works in ways I least expect.  I always have these ideas in my head of the way things should go.  Get married, have kids, buy a house, spend tons of time with my family.  As a kid dreaming about the future that is what you think.  Fairytale ending.  Once you get married everything is gonna be perfect.  God has other plans that I would never have thought I could handle.  My marriage is great and for that I am thankful.  But I never really thought about all the other stresses of life that everyone goes through.  Grant working all the time, being tired when he gets home, having bad work situations, and still struggling every day to pay bills.  Going through times where you are worried about businesses closing and not having a job.  Every stress and every worry has helped me grow.  Helped me realized that God is more important than where I live or what I eat, even down to little things like not having cable.  God always takes care of us.  Even when we do not make enough in a month.  Somehow we make it through and we are fine.  Right now we are going through a short sale process on our house.  Our house is for sale for $100,000 less than we bought it and there is little interest.  We only bought is 5 years ago.  As stressful as it is, and no matter how much of a failure I feel like, this has been a huge growing experience.  God will always provide for us.  Sometimes we go through tough situations but it is only to make me rely on God and go to him with my prayers.  Unfortunately it seems like when my life is going good and I am not stressed that I rely on God less.  I hate that thought.  That when I should be thanking God for a great life he gets pushed off.  Being stresses and worried or hurting is what draws people to God.  So even when it feels like what you are going through is horrible and you can never handle it...you can as long as you lean on God.  God has a plan.  He knows what is best not me.  I am frustrated our house is such a good deal in our minds and nobody is interested, but God knows what he is doing.  He is preparing Grant and I for our future.  It might not be the future we dream about, or the future we think is going to happen, but it will be the future God wants us to have.  We might be stressed about money and paying bills for the rest of our lives, but if that is what it takes to make us rely on God then bring it on.